I am so sorry to hear of the passing of James. I just lost a love one just this Monday passed, I know the void feeling and the asking of questions, but I do find comfort in prayer asking for help for the hurt I am feeling. We can help each other heal. I don't know if you are a reader of the scriptures, but they do help ease the pain of hurt. Please read 2 Corinthians 1:3,4 reading this did ease my pain and I hope it does the same for you also.